Nothing like waiting till the last minute to run out and go shopping! Even though it's not my own money. I feel bad about that but I haven't gotten a job yet and my stomach stuff has keep me isolated at home again and unwilling to work harder to get a job. Because I'm afraid once I do the same pattern will happen again like my other jobs. I start out great, and do okay for a while but slowly my stomach stuff catches up and eventually gets me fired.

:sigh:

Still, Xmas usually makes me happy even if it is depressing that I can't buy gifts with my own moola. But hey I'll get some money from grandma to shop and spending money makes me happy..for a moment. .-.;

I'm an impulsive shopper too, ahhh I'm so bad! Especially since new volumes of the manga I'm collecting are coming out and I'm collecting like a whole shit load of series right now! As soon as I finished one series I started another one!

Right now I'm collectinggg:

Tsubasa, Loveless, Petshop of Horrors: Tokyo, Hellsing, Blank Slate, Vassalord AND Silver Diamond.

I also want to get the rest of the volumes of Totally Captivated that for some reason are NEVER in stock at Barnes and Nobles. I'd have to order them online and that's gonna cost more than it has to but at least I still have my membership card :thumbs up:

Whee my fantasy land of manga and Rping keep me from getting depressed for too long or utterly going crazy ha ha. They also prevent me from coming to terms with reality and how I'm a single 24 year old virgin living at home with my parents without a jobbb GO ME!!

I felt really depressed last week, even wrote a depressing email to my aunt, whoops. I don't have anyone to talk to about it though, I don't like discussing it with people who are just going to be mean to me about it and such. Though my sister and mom are the most tolerant and hang out with me and get me food. Dad yells at me and my brother calls me an idiot all the time, guh I hope he gets COAL for Christmas. Jackass.

Whee I'm sleepy and my stomach feels like it's going to explode again! I hate my bodayyy.

Lena